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May. 19th, 2005 @ 04:11 pm (no subject)
holy shit i'm tired. I've been hanging drywall all damn day. Not alot is going on. Steven will be here in 6 days. AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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May. 2nd, 2005 @ 10:58 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
ya, just when you think everything is fucking ok, it's not, is it? WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!! I fell like I can't breathe. Like some one has there arms around my lungs and no air can get in. I fucking don't know if I wanna cry ir throw something. I'm fucking crumbling in my computer chair. FUCK!!!!!!!!!
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Apr. 28th, 2005 @ 02:02 pm random shit...
Current Mood: awakeawake
Yeah, I dont know why it was such a big deal to him. Im like what the FUCK? And then to tell me he's not pissed or depressed about it? I think i know him by now, you know? I could obviously tell he was bothered by it. SHIT!!!! Oh, well...

anyway, I've been IMing him for the past hour. Him and Dahlberg. I miss the shit out of them. (sad face) But it isn't like I can go to Korea or Iraq, now can I?

Jessica got a 2005 Honda. It's pretty cool. 15G's out the door.

It's wierd to be on this site. Im usually on Myspace now.

Well, my appartment is really dirty, so I need to go clean it, and check when Mel gets off work. I can't remember if we had anything planned. Damn, I have such a shitty memory. I swear im fucking 80 years old and shit.
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Apr. 27th, 2005 @ 03:59 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: tiredtired
im back in chowtown, once again. nothing much is going on. Me and hanebury live together now. steven is in iraq. um... yeah. he gets to come back around the 25th of next month. Were going to try for a baby...
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Mar. 20th, 2005 @ 02:19 am (no subject)
I'm back at my mom's. Steven left for iraq about 2 weeks ago. I miss him. Now I'm in Dead End town for a year. YEAH! Not
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Jan. 14th, 2005 @ 01:47 pm (no subject)
3 more days until I fly back to the Springs! Hell ya. I miss my life there so much. It sucks to say my goodbyes. I need to visit Joyce, Mel and the Calley's before I leave. We went down to Bakersfield yesterday. It was kindof fun. But, yeah. It sucks to think that the next time I'll be in Chowchilla, Steven will be in Iraq. I'm going to be so depressed. I KNOW IT! And that is such a shitty feeling.
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Jan. 10th, 2005 @ 07:16 pm Tv eyes
Current Mood: groggygroggy
i've been sitting around all day watching that marathon of that show "The Biggest Loser." It's very entertaining. But my head hurts from staring at the t.v. for hours on end. Me and Mel talked about getting a place together when I get back from the Springs. We;ll see about that. I miss steve. He's on a biv right now, so he can't call him or anything. It sucks. Well, that's about it I think.
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Jan. 9th, 2005 @ 04:25 pm (no subject)
just sitting here. I've been helping my mom move her new furniture in all day. And I'm really sore now. I saw couches I want yesterday. Although I can't buy anything until Steve leaves to good ol' Iraq, and I move back. But I'l keep them in mind. I haven't talked to Mel yet today. We were thinking of old songs we liked back in like 8th grade to make a CD. She said when she was finished, she would make me one to. So i wonder how that will turn out.
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Jan. 9th, 2005 @ 04:13 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: draineddrained
i stole this from jj:

A - Age: 18
B - Best Quality: um.. persuasion
C - Choice Of Meat: fried chicken..mmmm
D - Dream Date: Brad Pitt- who else?
E - Ex: he's a cool guy..
F - Favorite Food: Chicken Parmesean from Fazolli's
G - Greatest Accomplishment: surviving highschool without shooting myself
H - Happiest Day of Your Life: Nov. 15th- the day I got married
I - Internal conflicts: hmmm...
J - Job title: MOOCH
K - Kool-Aid: ?
L - Love: is a struggle
M - Most Valued Thing I Own: My wedding ring or my cat
N - Name: Joshua Austin Vrabec... soon to be my son's name- hopefully
O - Outfit You Love: ?
P – Pissed: quite often
Q - Question you want to ask: Why the FUCK does Steve have to go to Iraq?!!
R - Red is what: my favorite color
S - Sport To Watch: dodgeball
T - Television Show: The OC- or Desperate house wives
U - Unique habit: picking my nose?
V - Very bad habit: picking my nose
W - Winter: best season- except in colorado- f snow!
X - X-rays you've had: My hip, in Basic Training
Y - Year Born: 1986
Z - Zodiac Sign: Scorpio
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Jan. 7th, 2005 @ 12:10 am things have really changed!
Current Mood: nostalgicnostalgic
Yup- i have a new journal. as if anyone read my old one... But im at my mom's and it's late, and my journal is in colorado with steve, so i figured i would invest my time in this thing again. Although my old journal caused a little trouble.. noone really goes on this any more, so i figured what's it gonna hurt, right? Man, being back in Chowchilla, is like SUPER depressing. I mean, think about it. Even coming on this site is depressing. Thinking that all of us used to communicate on here. You know whats wierd? We were all a tight little circle, we all talked to eachother, and promised to keep in touch, but things changed. What's even wierder, but cool is- i still talk to the lot of you guys. Ang, elva, mel, mel c, jessica. but none of you guys talk to eachother? Is it that your guys' friendships jsut really weren't that important to eachother? It makes me really sad. I never thought everyone would be so seperate. Ang in fucking Misouri, in the Army. Me, Married to Steve, in Colorado. Elva in Tennesse. Mel living with Anthony. Mel c in Modesto, engaged. Jessica in Le grand. We all were so close once upon a time, what happened? I guess you always tell yourself, your not going to be like everyone else. your going to keep in touch with the people that really matter. But the we get wrapped up in our own little worlds, and forget all the goods times we had that made up for the bad. I love you guys and i just wanted you guys to know that i miss how it was...
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